I am a ticket for a runaway train...

I took a good look in the mirror tonight...and I didn't like what I saw. The reflection that stared back at me with brows furrowed was not the man I expected, or wanted to see. In fact, it was quite the opposite of what I expected to see. The man I saw standing there facing me was a man I had never wanted to be. It's sad because you think to yourself, "Man, I never wanna be like that," or, "I'm gonna make sure I'm like this, not this." And before you know it, you become the something you always intended on NOT being. So what now? I don't know. I guess this trip to Japan will be good for me. A lot of my coworkers said that it's a pretty lonely time out there, mostly because of the huge language barrier. Maybe this is what I need, a few weeks of solitude, do a little soul searching....or soul tune-up rather. Anyway, enough of this rambling...I'm sick.